If you're asking..I do..

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-09-11T19:08:00

2005-09-12T00:10:20Z

new user name

jessica___ann

that's 3 understrokes

you know the drill

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-09-06T21:46:00

2005-09-07T02:56:32Z

yeah, way to go there for not writing me back there buddy, espeacily when you don't have someone else reading your emails so that it looks like you did when you didnt.

all i want is attention, and i'm put second. i'm always put second that's why i want attention from you. that's all what i've been trying to get to through to you.

i guess people just don't realize that what everyone needs once in a while is attention to make them feel better, instead they think that they need space, whatever.

boys seriously confuse me. i really need more girl friends.

school is going to kill me this year. i guess this year will show what kind of a student i really am. i'm probably going to be grounded most of the year because i can't match what my brothers in middle school are making. my parents don't understand that they are in middle school and i am in highschool. oh well, that's life.

rachel said that we are going to homecoming together! yes! because i want to dance this year, and i dont like dancing with guys that much, espeacily when you get your butt molested 29834902834 times by different guys forgetting their bananna in their pants.

hahaa.

ugh i really want to get to know this girl because i think that we'd be really good friends but i don't think that she'd like me very much ;/
that sounds kinda like i'm some dude that wants to meet this girl to get the hook-up. ohhhhhhhh yeahhhhhhhh.

picture day tomorrow, hope i look cute.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-09-05T18:14:00

2005-09-04T23:19:22Z

so i'm going to be making more purses & selling them for 10 or 8 dollars or whatever.

if you want one, and want spefic fabrics or whatever. just buy some and give it to me and tell me what you want.

and i think im going to make another lj

this name is gay.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-08-29T22:31:00

2005-08-30T03:43:58Z

so we have no school tomorrow which is kinda cool.
if the weather isnt so bad tomorrow then i'm getting my hair cut & dying it some darker.
but it probably is going to bed bad. i just want something to do.
if i do get my haircut i really dont want to get too much chopped off. but usualy i go to some cheap place that kinda sucks because i dont want to make my mom pay a lot of money for me to get my hair cut.
what's a good place to get your hair cut? or where do you go?
i was changing my part today and i noticed that my hair has gotten alot lighter. it sucks. i didn't think that it got that light.
krogers ran out of gas today. it was kinda funny. because we had to make out of gas signs.
so many people came today to get gas because it's the cheapest in town, and the delivery truck thing to fuel up the tanks didn't come because of the storms down south. i waited 15 mintues to get gas today. i went right after school/before work.

adios.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-08-22T14:17:00

2005-08-22T19:19:49Z

I GOT MY BRACES OFF TODAY. THANK-YOU-VERY-MUCH.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-08-21T13:45:00

2005-08-21T18:49:50Z

Today's my Oma's birthday.

It's funny how he drives everyone around town and doesn't even stop by my house.
Or how he goes to his other house to see if I sent him an email, and when he reads it he doesn't even write back, because he has to rush home to call me.
When theres a phone at the house where he was.

I'm going to fail english and us history this year.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-08-15T21:14:00

2005-08-16T02:15:22Z

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-07-26T19:19:00

2005-07-27T00:20:00Z

1. my names jessica.
2. im german.
3. my last name is from yugoslavia but it's broken up into alot of countries since i last checked.
4. no i'm not iraqi.
5. i work for krogers.
6. yes you can come see me.
7. i hate doing utility there.
8. i think my best friend hates me.
9. i love him.
10. i have chickens.
11. no i dont live on a farm.
12. i'm sixteen and turn seventeen in january.
13. i get try to get away from things when they get too serious.
14. or when i get too attached.
15. i was messing around trying something and i think i gave myself a tattoo.
16. i one day would like to become vegan. right now i'm just working on going straight vegitarian.
17. i havent eaten meat in 1 and a half weeks.
18. i have a hard time attracting boys.
19. and freinds.
20. i have like one friend.
21. so i busy myself with other things so that doesnt get to me.
22. this year is going to be all about academics for me.
23. i wear little girl clothes.
24. because they fit better then most sizes.
25. ive gained 10 pounds recently.
26. i'm developing insomnia like the rest of the world.
27. i don't like it when people compliment me.
28. most of the time it seems like they are lieing
29. i was bulimic for almost a year.
30. i kept it hidden from everyone.
31. it did me no good. i barely lost weight.
32. i still do it.
33. acctully, its more often now that i've gained weight.
34. i worry about stuff alot.
35. i'm not very liked at school.
36. so i tend to keep to myself.
37. i just smile at people in the hallways.
38. lots of times when i try to talk to people they just shrug me off.
39. at school they should have a makeing freinds 101 class.
40. i want school to start SOON.
41. i always have nail polish on my nails.
42. if i dont then i will the next day.
43. i think its a habit.
44. if i dont have any on then i dont feel whole.
45. same thing with my toe nails.
46. nail polish always lasts longer on them, bastards.
47. i'm addicted to the sims.
48. i have been playing it since a week after they realased the orignal.
49. it looks realy nice right now and reminds me of a spring day on detergant commercials.
50. i wish it was spring.
51. its my favorite season i guess.
52. my favorite color is pink.
53. and my favorite number is 37.
54. and the animal is bird and chicken.
55. food is pineapple and corn.
56. i love computers and fixing them when they dont work.
57. i look through peoples bathrooms when i stay the night.
58. i love all animals and luckily they like me too.
59. my hair is horrible and isnt growing out fast enough.
60. once it gets a decent length to cut all of the dyed part off i'm going to do that.
61. then i'm going to grow my hair out for locks of love.
62. i just read that a squirl got electrocuted and fell and caught on fire & then a forest caught on fire ;/.
63. i like taking pictures.
64. even if they aren't so great.
65. i get stains on everything.
66. i think that i have poor circulation.
67. my legs cramp everyday.
68. my feet are tiny and so are my toes.
69. i miss germany.
70. i want to work there one day just so that i can live there.
71. i love tetris and can beat anyone on it.
72. i have aol and i LIKE it.
73. i have a habit at picking at stuff.
74. espeacily scabs.
75. i have tons of scars on my legs from doing that.
76. i used to play soccer.
77. and i used to be in gymnastics.
78. i miss both.
79. and i was in band.
80. but i'm glad that i didnt even join.
81. it doesnt sound too good from what people have told me.
82. i hardly ever change my contacts.
83. i never take them out.
84. i was soppose to get new ones in january.
85. i havent even used half of the years supply yet.
86. im legally blind.
87. i sleep with my mouth open.
88. and i drool.
89. i listen to rap.
90. and rock.
91. and pop.
92. i'm 4'11 and a half.
93. i always say i'm 5'
94. 99% of girls my age are taller then me.
95. which is kinda scarey.
96. it makes me feel like a mouse.
97. but that's cool.
98. the andy milininakos show or what ever is my favorite tv show.
99. i know every episode.
100. i memorize them.

its crazy.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-07-24T12:57:00

2005-07-24T18:05:16Z

so im sick. i think its the flu or a cold or something. in the summer? its weird. so i've noticed that alot of people have changed over the summer. we're all getting older and maturing. people have signed up for college classes. people are moving into their dorms. i'm looking at colleges now. isn't that weird? i mean, just three years ago i was a freshman worried about getting to time to a class. and now i'm worrying about my grades and if i can get a good enough score on my sat to get into the college i want to get into.

ive noticed that i've changed alot over the past two weeks. i think i've matured. i know what i want in life and what i don't. i'm realizeing that i have to let go of somethings that were cool for moment and were what i wanted then but not in the long run. and that's hard.

i guess that's why people dont like change.

i have to make a big change soon.

btw i hate trying on pants. its hard to hide the weight that you gain over summer because your mom buys all this good junkfood. because i really dont care. its good. and breaking out before your period really isnt so cool.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-07-21T14:59:00

2005-07-21T20:04:16Z

i get my braces off in 32 days, bitches

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-07-17T23:00:00

2005-07-18T04:03:30Z

things are different. they aren't the same, we don't talk like before. we barely talk on the phone. the time we spend together is nice but its different too, sometimes it seems like we only do some stuff just because.

im coming charlie!

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-07-08T01:04:00

2005-07-08T06:05:19Z

boom boom huckjam

2005-07-03T04:59:03Z

today i went to tony hawks boom boom huckjam thing. it was a skate show inside. it had skateboarders, bmx people and motocross. i LOVE motocross now. it was so amazing. there were lots of cute boys there, but they all were probably 12 or something. some 20 something year old said hi to me but i kinda said hi and turned around. i felt bad but i was about to get lost from my mom. that place was HUGE. it was crazy. i went into some thing from FUEL and i dont know. it was crazy and intense. i think those people were crazy.

here are pictures.

i want a cute boy to take me to nashville during the night. i also want him to take me into WANNA B'S kareoke bar. it looked awesome.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-06-23T23:42:00

2005-06-24T04:55:17Z

new pictures

& old ones

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-06-22T22:36:00

2005-06-23T03:40:35Z

my hairs growing fast now. or so it seems. its awesome.

earlier today on the trampoline part of my stomach looked like i was a light skinned black.

the pool was funnnn. but i dont think i'm going to buy a sting bikini ever again, unless i grow more boobs..if that helps it from coming up when i jump in the water?? there are girls that have boobs that read this..tell me!!

i need to go in the pool more so my hair will get lighter..i want to dye my hair a really light brown..but i dunno.

work tomorrow 5-10.

i hate late shifts because then i've been up all day and am tired already when i go to work.

7 days til my summer work's due. well the first one.

i get a 8 hour shift friday 2-1030

i get paid tomorrow.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-06-15T23:30:00

2005-06-16T04:31:39Z

I GET MY FIRST PAY CHECK TOMORROW.

SHOPPING SPREE AT WALMART.

MOVIE NIGHT TOMORROW.

YES.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-06-12T10:41:00

2005-06-12T15:44:46Z

he's going to be fucking shot with a m16 called big bertha.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-06-10T08:37:00

2005-06-10T13:40:28Z

i got the job at krogers.

i started working monday

ive made 83 or so dollars in 3 days.

sweet.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-06-03T22:46:00

2005-06-04T03:55:42Z

I am not: happy.
I hurt: for the stupidest things.
I love: my boyfriend entirely too much that it hurts.
I hate: my self esteme
I fear: not being liked.
I hope: to make more friends.
I hear: crikets.
I crave: any kind of food.
I regret: too many things.
I cry: for the stupidest things.
I care: too much.
I always: eat too much.
I long to: love myself.
I feel alone: too often.
I listen: well.
I hide: never.
I drive: way too dangerously.
I sing: terribly.
I dance: always.
I write: never.
I breathe: irregularly.
I play: trumpet.
I miss: germany.
I have: plenty.
I give: anything.
I fight: too much.
I wait: never.
I need: a really good friend.
I am: lost.
I think: too much.
I can't help the fact that: i have a hard time trusting anyone.
I stay: in too much.
I search: for something better.
I learn: quickly.
I feel: huungrey.
I know: things will get better.
I say: the wrong things alot.
I fail: in the things i hate.
I dream: about creepy things.
I sleep: not enough.
I wonder: when theyll come back.
I want: too many things.
I worry: too much.

amandas cow.

2005-06-01T17:15:38Z

i forgot about it. and its rainy today. but heres one i made awhile ago.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-06-01T11:53:00

2005-06-01T16:55:09Z

I HAVE AN INTERVEIW TOMORROW AT 10 FOR KROGERS.

IM HAPPY.

WISH ME LUCK.

I NEED A JOB.

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-05-29T21:38:00

2005-05-30T02:40:33Z

so today i wieghed myself at a freinds house.

either i lost 4 pounds really quickly or my clothes wieghed 4 pounds. i dont know.

i think its a little of both.

this is wonderful.

MICHELLES PICTURES

2005-05-28T14:41:59Z

if you want me to post pictures for you leave a comment on the entry before this. DO IT.

stole this from the beautiful michelle

2005-05-27T21:51:17Z

okay,
i'll take a picture of whatever you want me too,
no matter how embarrassing or such and i'll post it

as_hot_as_gwen @ 2005-05-08T19:53:00

2005-05-09T00:59:29Z

yeah.

he's a jack butt.

i hate calling him that.

but he is.

i love you baby.

sike.